I just wanted to say thank you to my followers. Yes, all twenty-something of you. (UPDATE: I am a teensy bit more pleased than previous because I have *31* followers now, a few more than last time I was here, I hope to get a chance to talk with you soon and check out your blogs xo) There have been days when I was so down but I felt the urge to get out of bed and come here because some of you have been so kind and helpful that I missed you when I was away. Maybe that sounds weird, but I mean it. I also can't deny the fact that I am going through some things right now. I feel guilty when I don't come by here, so I at least wanted to say something to let you know that I am still alive, and while I may not be posting as often as I would like or as often as I have been, I am not shutting up shop. I know a lot of blogs talk about how no one really wants to be brought down when they go to their reading list, but I feel unreal to pretend I am cupcake & butterflies giddy all of the time; quite contrary, I suffer from borderline personality disorder and currently from events in my life that.. I haven't quite been able to grasp and cope with. I sometimes feel I am slipping farther and farther from reality. It's almost a feeling of swaying on a tightrope so high in the air, the wire being the present, the left of me being sanity and to the right.. a very questionable and unwell state of mind. My friends, and even strangers, have tried to talk sense into me. To know people are there for me is nice, but it doesn't bring me back to solid ground. I hope to overcome this somehow. I haven't given up hope. Anyway.. enough of my rambling, eh? I hope everyone is doing well, I'll try to get back here soon and see what everyone is up to and make some posts of my own. You are all darling.