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Friday, October 21, 2011

Thank You

I just wanted to say thank you to my followers. Yes, all twenty-something of you. (UPDATE: I am a teensy bit more pleased than previous because I have *31* followers now, a few more than last time I was here, I hope to get a chance to talk with you soon and check out your blogs xo) There have been days when I was so down but I felt the urge to get out of bed and come here because some of you have been so kind and helpful that I missed you when I was away. Maybe that sounds weird, but I mean it.  I also can't deny the fact that I am going through some things right now. I feel guilty when I don't come by here, so I at least wanted to say something to let you know that I am still alive, and while I may not be posting as often as I would like or as often as I have been, I am not shutting up shop. I know a lot of blogs talk about how no one really wants to be brought down when they go to their reading list, but I feel unreal to pretend I am cupcake & butterflies giddy all of the time; quite contrary, I suffer from borderline personality disorder and currently from events in my life that.. I haven't quite been able to grasp and cope with. I sometimes feel I am slipping farther and farther from reality. It's almost a feeling of swaying on a tightrope so high in the air, the wire being the present, the left of me being sanity and to the right.. a very questionable and unwell state of mind. My friends, and even strangers, have tried to talk sense into me. To know people are there for me is nice, but it doesn't bring me back to solid ground. I hope to overcome this somehow. I haven't given up hope. Anyway.. enough of my rambling, eh? I hope everyone is doing well, I'll try to get back here soon and see what everyone is up to and make some posts of my own. You are all darling.

<3 Amber


  1. No YOU are darling! I hope you're okay. Hope to see you back around here soon :)

  2. Always look forward to seeing your new posts. :) hope to see more soon.! take care, and hope you feel better. :)

  3. Sounds like you are dealing with some really hard stuff. I always think, that 'your' blog is an outlet for 'you' not anyone else - if you feel better for writing about your feelings, then hell, why not do it! Take care of yourself lovely, I hope you are feeling all cupcakes & butterflies soon xox

  4. Sorry to hear you're going through a hard time. I don't think there's anything wrong with being honest on your blog, we don't all spend everyday baking amazing cupcakes, wearing incredible outfits and having exciting adventures.
    You're the sweetest girl on my blog list and I look forward to seeing you post again soon :)

  5. I've been feeling pretty similar lately. I love blogging, and that people are interested in what I feel and say, but at the same time when real life happens and you're feeling pretty shitty- it's hard to blog about. Either you fake the sunshine and rainbows, or you 'bring everyone down'. So thank you for your honesty, and I hope you work things out soon lady :) When I feel off like that I try to make a list of qualities that are uniquely mine, and that I like about myself- then make a list of things you want to get out of your life so you can be who you want to be. This sounds a little silly, but it's actually really helped me in times of personal struggle.

  6. Oh Amber! I'm so sorry you're going through such a difficult time lately. I hope you get the help you need so that you may begin to feel happy again. You deserve it, love!<3

  7. You are all really, really amazing :')
    Today is my birthday, and I couldn't hardly shake the bad thoughts away still. This makes me smile so much seeing these lovely comments. It's great to know I have not been abandoned (haha)
    Seriously, though. Really, really, really.. thank you.